One of the biggest fears I had was talking to people. I have said many times before that I would rather lock myself in a room with a book or computer rather than having to talk with others. I still have that fear sometimes when I have to minister or do public speaking. As I read the account of when God (Adonai) called Moses (Moshe) in the book of Exodus, I am encouraged to know that I am not the only one who had such fear and to know God is in control even of my mouth when He gives me an assignment.

Exodus 4 verse 10 records Moshe's fear of public speaking. "Moshe said to Adonai, "Oh, Adonai, I'm a terrible speaker. I always have been, and I'm no better now, even after you have spoken to your servant! My words come slowly, my tongue moves slowly." (CBJ-Complete Jewish Bible)

In Exodus chapter four we read of the awesome encounter that Moshe had with Adonai. After Adonai gave Moshe instructions to lead His people out of bondage in Egypt Moshe's response was "I am a terrible speaker, I always have been, and I am no better now, even after you spoke to your servant." Moshe, basically told Adonai that he is not a great speaker so he should find someone else for the job. The interesting thing I wanted to highlight from this verse which Moshe said is this; "I am no better now, even after you have spoken to your servant." The reason, here Moshe is having an encounter with the All-Knowing All-Powerful God and even after his encounter, he felt no different than before.  Moshe's encounter at that moment would be equivalent to what we would call today a "Holy Ghost" encounter in the church. The moment when you are sure you heard from God and you know he spoke to you. How Moshe felt is so important to us because many times as believers we feel as if when we have an encounter with Adonai our capabilities would somehow supernaturally change and we become this superhero version of ourselves.   

When we are called by Adonai and is given an instruction to carry out His mission it is not about our capabilities but His willingness to use us to demonstrate His power in the Earth. We understand this truth because of Adonai's response to Moshe in Exodus chapter 4 verses 11 and 12; "Adonai answered him, "who gives a person mouth? Who makes a person dumb or deaf, keen-sighted or blind? isn't it I? Adonai? Now, there, go; and I will be with your mouth and will teach you what to say."(CJB)

Adonai is not interested in our capabilities but our willingness to go and do what He has asked of us. When you and I surrender to Adonai's will He can show Himself strong in the Earth so that those who do not know Him might come to realize their frailty without Him.

If Adonai has spoken to you and you don't feel competent or capable after your experience with Him, it is Okay. Adonai, through His Son, Yeshua (Jesus) has given us the Holy Spirit to empower us to be His witness in Earth.  Acts chapter 1 verse 8 states, But you will receive power and ability when the Holy Spirit comes upon you; and you will be My witnesses [to tell people about Me] both in Jerusalem and in all Judea, and Samaria, and even to the ends of the earth.” (Amplified)  

It is in your surrender and willingness to go that the Holy Spirit can manifest Adonai's power.  Today I want to encourage someone who is feeling incapable of following God's instructions just continue to trust, rely, and depend on Him, for it is He who will work through you.  As Adonai said to Moshe, so I admonish you; go and Adonai will be with your mouth and will teach you what to say. Remember, Yeshua also promised never to leave nor forsake you. He said in Matthew chapter 28 in verse 20, "I will be with you always, yes even until the end of the age."(CJB)
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Go and do as Adonai commanded you.  

It is not easy being you when you are busy being the person everyone else expects you to be. You are drowning in the thoughts of your mind trying to come a float hoping that someone will see and hear the screams that are buried inside. With purpose and destiny locked within you wonder when you will be free to do that very thing that brings you hope and joy from deep within. You are waiting for that moment to breathe… that moment to exhale… that moment to “Ahhhh…” release. To release all that has been holding you back from becoming the person God intended you to be. Is it time to let go, is it time to seize the day, is it time for you to allow the gifts and talents God has given you to take you to your destiny.

Don’t hold back any longer!

Let life spring forth as the sunrise and be you. Be the person God intended you to be, no longer living to be the engine that boast another man’s ship.
Be free to be you!

Stop trying to live a dream in your head when God intend for that dream to help and inspire others to dream as well. Quit fighting within your minds eyes trying to see what lies ahead, when you got all that you need to take the journey before you.  Stop living behind the walls of fear and dread of what people may say and do, the only challenge is for you to become the “you” God intended you to be. How long will you doubt, how long you will worry; as if either can make a difference in who God intended you to be?
It is time to see that God is in control. He is the Creator, the master Designer and Planner of your destiny. He knew there would have been challenges. He knew people would use and abuse you. He knew people would want to take all He has placed in you and use it to build their life’s dream and destiny. How long will you allow them to do so? Are you so scared of man that you would put in danger those who God has intended for you to help along the way? He knew you would hide behind your past failures, behind your hurts and pain. He knew you would shy away from fame.

Paralyzed by fear, numb with insecurities and chastised by destiny; how can I be free? I am torn betwixt the two: where I am and where I want to be. Destiny is driving me opposite of where I am heading, yet I find it difficult to let go and surrender to its will. Restlessness and sleepless nights overshadows me like pillars of cloud on a stormy night. I battle confusion like a soldier laden under enemy fire. I do all I can to keep my head just above the water like a man drowning in deep waters. I don’t know how much longer I can keep my legs and hands going before I get weary from all the paddling. I am stressed and pressed beyond what I can take, knowing what is at stake. I can either be the person God intended me to be or continue to be busy being the person everyone expects me to be.

Destiny is calling me!

Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.  2 Timothy 2:15
 
Written November 21, 2013

​Most times God uses the least expected person to set His plan in motion for your life. Sometimes we get so caught up in our expectation of others that we missed what God is trying to do. You know what I'm talking about, we get angry when the person we expect to show up for us but don't. We get angry when a family member or friend who has the “key” to the door we want to get in still they refuse to open the door.  We develop an entitlement complex. Because we believe that they should give us what we want when we want it, and how you want it; without considering whether or not God desires for them to be a part of His plan for us. God does not share His glory with anyone. Therefore, He will not allow anyone to assist you who will try to take His glory; nor will He allow you to see anyone else as God in your life.  He alone is God. When He open doors, God wants you and me to recognize that it could only be Him.

Don't allow your frustration with people to cause you to forfeit what God is about to do in your life.  Commit your ways to the Lord and He will direct your steps. Each day as you humbly submit your heart to Him, God will open the eyes of your understanding to see the next step for you to take. That’s right, I said the next step, not the “big picture.” God shows us the end results, but not the big picture for it is during those steps that our faith and trust in Him are developed. Our faith becomes the substance of the big picture we hoped for and the evidence of our ability to trust God during the process to take us one step at a time.

Looking at the life of Joseph we can identify the big picture as God showed up in his dreams; his father and brothers would one day bow before him (Genesis chapter 37). Yet God didn't reveal the process or the journey of his life that would result in his family bowing before him (Genesis chapter 42).

Let's be real; if God was to tell us all that we would have to endure in order to see the fullness of His promise manifest in our lives, how many of us would be as bold as the prophet Jeremiah and say “here am I Lord, send me?” (Isaiah 6:8). That's what I thought.  We all would rather take the easy road if it will lead us to the promised land.  Abraham tried taking the easy road when he and Sarah tried to help speed up the process and took Hagar his maid to be his wife to give him a son, Ishmael.  Throughout the Bible, in the pages of history, and even now we see how the nation of Israel has been affected by the consequence of their actions.  Well, that's another lesson for another time so let's not get stuck there.

The lesson I want you to learn is this; trusting God and remaining faithful during the process to your "big picture" whatever that is for you is never easy. It requires focus, determination, and undeniable confidence in knowing who God is regardless of what you see happening around you or how you feel. God is not bound to your circumstances or your emotions so you can take one step at a time no matter how foolish it may seem. Remember His promise to you, is to direct your steps. Learn to trust God and not depend on your own understanding, acknowledging Him in all you do so He can direct your steps.

I pray you will develop undeniable confidence in God as you learn His ways. Don't get stuck on people. Keep taking those steps as God leads. One day you will reflect on the journey and see the beautiful picture that God has used your life to paint for His glory.

Share the joy of reading and receiving this teaching with a friend or loved one that they too can be encouraged to take the next step.  Leave a comment and let me know how this teaching has impacted your life. Send your prayer request as well. Looking forward to hearing from you.

Blessings!